There is nothing quite like that moment when, after contemplating possible futures, choices and commitments are made, and, and all of a sudden, you're now dealing with a future. That moment of commitment, that moment of time when you fully realize the reality you're in, the full emotional impact hits you and you realize: "Holy sh*t, this is actually going to happen."
And, there's no going back now.
seasleepy and I have been trying to figure out various possible ways of dealing with immigration, either me to the States, or her into Canada. Over time, we were pretty sure she was going to come up here, and we had begun planning accordingly (one of the reasons why I moved, for example), but, we always tried to keep her options open until the last possible moment.
Today, those options faded away. She's now committed to coming up here for at least four months. And, on the basis of those four months, we're going to see if we have achieved that magic mix of loving each other, and being able to live with each other as well. (Something that, sadly, don't always go hand in hand.) But, if it does work out -- we'll probably be married before the end of this year, so we can begin the immigration paperwork into Canada.
Now, I'm going to just run around the room in circles for a little while, while my mind tries to come to grips as to what the next six months of 2007 are going to mean for my life and hers. Whoa.
Tags: future, philosophy, seasleepy